Important moment 9/9/14

"There are moments when the body is as numious as words," by Robert Hass. This quote grabbed my attention.
Back to my story though, my grandmother passed away because of cancer. So you can only imagine the whole families reaction, losing someone you love has to be the worst feeling in the world. None of the family knew she had caner. My grandmother was so young, and just two days before she left us she was playing with us sand volleyball out in the heat, and let me tell you my grandmother is a beast! Everyone wanted that woman or their team. It was so odd that no one noticed that something was wrong, but then again she was so good at hiding it.  I know they say they don't have favorites but I was her favorite I was her first granddaughter and I was always around her plus she would treat me differently, she was so inspirational and knew what to always say. I was at her house once and I was helping her clean around, we were moving furniture around and we but we were exhausted. I saw her sit on one of the couches holding on to her chest and I could hear her try and speak to me but I couldn't fully understand what was happening, I started freaking out. I got her some water and let me tell you I was only 12 so what was I suppose to do I knew nothing about cancer. After that she would just tell me that its because all the moving was tiring so that's what I thought. The day she was in the hospital she wanted to talk to everyone one on one because she wanted to talk to us all, the doctors said she was fine and it was nothing serious. It was my turn to go in the room, we were talking about how she felt and she told me that she was fine she was just really tired, I had asked her if what the doctor had said was true and she would be OK, she responded me with "of course you know I'm a strong woman" I smile as I type this because I still hear her voice say that phrase in my head till this day. She grabbed my hand and said never forget how much I love you, her hand slowly stated getting weaker and weaker I looked up and she finally let go. My grandmother had passed away. It still kills me inside to realize that 1 I could've prevented this if I was smarted and told my my mother what I would always see when I was with her. 2 it hurts so much that I was right next to her when she left me. I haven't recovered since then, it still hurts till this day to try to remember what had happen that day, its been over 6 years and it still hurts me because I feel like it's my fault. I could've done something to prevent it from happening. She always told me she wanted to be a teacher better yet a Spanish teacher and teach students a second language, I'm living her dream. I also want to become a teacher better yet a Spanish teacher, my grandmother would've been proud so see me come this far and I know she's proud where ever she is watching me from.